I tend to find it hard to slow down after a really busy stage in life. It’s not that I don’t like to relax. (It’s actually a passion of mine.) But I still find the transition from being busy to being ‘unbusy’ a hard one. I think I feel guilty. I question my own completeness without the busyness and automatically start to look for new things to get me busy again.
Right now I am obsessing about what to do with the next phase of my life. So much so I know I am in danger of losing the gift of this peaceful space I find myself in right now. I can feel myself stressing about choices and trying to make the ‘right thing’ happen even though I have no idea what is right for me in this moment of time. Should I be applying for more jobs? Should I be looking for more digital communications clients? Which way should I focus? What is it I want to do?
I am a firm believer that, in life, if you wait and be patient the right answers and opportunities will come to you. I tend to “feel” my way through life and that practice has rarely let me down. Writing this post is really all about reminding myself of these things. Knowing that I can’t always be in control, but that if I choose to listen and follow that still small voice deep within, what I need will come to me. Even if all of the evidence around me (and my own over thinking) seem to suggest differently. I guess that is what you call faith.
So, today I am choosing to hang up my inner control freak and follow the still small voice urging me to relax and enjoy the peaceful space I am in. I will be content with what I have and allow my faith to bring me exactly what I need. Selah! (Hebrew word meaning pause and think on that.)